this is going to be confusing. bare with me. this is also going to be metaphorical. kasi hindi natin alam kung sino ang mga nakakabasa. censored na talaga (di niyo ba napapansin i have some posts missing?). ngunit i really want to vent this out here, instead of doing it within the confines of my journal.
remember how i was ranting na di nako makalabas? just when i have the weekend off, lahat naman ng tao busy? well last night, kermit mentioned na asa Serendra daw siya and magkita kami. Walang keme keme I was there in less than 20mins.
the usual agam agam ensued and these are some of the things we discussed:
1. sometimes there are things (or people) that you really wanted but are so far from your reach that it would be virtually
impossible for you to have it. so you just look at it sorrowfully from afar. you just try to forget about it and move on. and then one day, marerealize mo nalang na it's there. as in it's just there. ayan asa tapat mo na. kukunin mo nalang.
gets?
kumbaga now is the perfect time and it just fell on your lap. you weren't even waiting for it... kasi you forgot about it all together.
talagang darating lang talaga ang perfect moment when everything falls into place.
which brings me to #2:
2. the event in #1 happened to kermit. ngayon, i can't say for myself na some things just fell on my lap. no. lahat ng nangyayari sakin is the consequence of what i did. this is how i explained this to kermit: for me, opportunities dont land on my lap. they dont fall from the sky. i have to carve niches for myself and make opportunities happen. i have a plan. and i have to stick to it for the opportunity to happen.
gets?
i don't wait for things to happen kasi i make them happen. kasi i know kapag naghintay ako aynako, wala, 48 years walang mangyayari sakin. kelangan ko talaga pagisipan at planuhin ang mga pangyayari. and girl, hindi ito short term plan. long term ito bakla. as in taon. i have to make the wheel, no matter how slow, turn. i can't wait for luck.
so the question is:
Do you let Fate decide what happens in its own perfect time and circumstance, or Take The Wheel?Ako pa naman yung tipo ng tao na feeling ko lahat ng bagay may rason. Feeling ko na if things just happen out of the blue, may ibig sabihin yun and makakacontribute yun sa greater karmic influence na meron itong purpose para sa buhay mo and at the same time ay nakatulong ka ren sa purpose ng iba. anlabo ba?
for instance. i received a call from a production company. i was referred by a friend na gawan daw ng segment yung shoes ko for Lifestyle Network (ahem ahem). so panic ako magpapagawa na ako ng shoes. Maybe this is a sign na kelangan ko na gumawa ng new designs to replenish my old stock. parang sinasabi ng tadhana:
hoy gumawa ka na ng bagong sapatos!Kaso i realized na andaming sablay:
a. They want to know more about Made To Order (Customized) shoes. Eh hindi naman ako gumagawa nun. Pero pwede daw ba ako gumawa. Sabi ko oo. Kasi possible naman talaga. Pero I explained na this is not the focus of my business.
b. What if I get calls na they saw sa TV na I design customized shoes and gusto ren nila magpagawa? In truth wala ako oras i-accomodate sila. Wala nga akong oras pumunta sa RCBC Plaza para ipa-unlock ang atm ko eh. Dumayo pa kaya ng Marikina para magscout ng materyales, sapatero at kung ano ano pa? So anong sasabihin ko "Sorry, I can't accomodate clients right now". Eh nagpafeature pa ako sa TV kung ayaw ko naman pala magka-client. ngek.
c. Lahat ng perang pumasok sakin this month is nakalaan na to pay for my credit card bills. Hindi ko talaga plano magpagawa ng shoes ngayon.
d. The shoot is supposed to be today (Monday). Closed ang Sueño on Mondays (where the shoot is going to be held), although the owner was really nice and supportive about it (she was willing to open the store during the shoot), I still thought it was too much hassle.
e. Kukulangin ako sa tulog and ayoko antukin sa aking night job. Critical time for work during this period, kinakabahan ako.
So in short, hindi na siya natuloy.
So, tell me, was that an opportunity? It came out of the blue and at first I thought na Fate was trying to tell me something pero pag inanalyze mo wala lang naman talaga.
Wala lang pampagulo lang.
