some stuff on my ipod

1. Crystal Waters
2. Usher
3. Outkast
4. Janet Jackson
5. Everything But The Girl
6. David Benoit
7. Side a
8. Eric Benet and Faith Hill
9. Black Eyed Peas
10. Pussycat Dolls
11. Alicia Keys
12. Busta Rhymes
13. Coolio
14. Lauryn Hill
15. Lighthouse Family
16. Justin Timberlake
17. Dave Matthews Band
18. Lukas Rossi and Ryan Star (o yeh!)
19. Kalapana
20. The Jets

insomniac

lazy ass fatso.
sleep all day.
doncha worry bout a thing.
whatever.
no discipline at all.

what to do what to do.

nakakatamad naman magencode!!!

why oh why do we have to do this???
baket?
baket!
nakakatamad!

it is so boring ever.

bored bored bored.

our house

herediz.
kita pa yung adventure.

and waddyaknow...

i've been writing in this blog for a year!

this is an achievement for me. i have attempted to do blogging before, as well as set up my own website first from angelfire, then geocities. even the blog i did in friendster wasnt really complete. i deleted the first one because i thought it was full of crap. but look at the one right now.

a year of writing nonsense.
a year of taking awesome pictures (wink wink).
a year and still karen hasn't discovered this blog hehehe. (or has she?)

only my journals top this. i have been writing in my journal for almost 10 years now. I have had about 9(?) noteboooks. my journals and i have been through a lot. it knew all of my dreams and watched one unfold. One pa lang. More to come.

Sigh. The Undiscovered Superstar.
=)

images to sear into my memory

the entrance. noisy clock, toaster i only used twice to heat spaghetti by Shakey's. I hate dripping umbrellas so notice the pranela propped up under it (semi O.C.)



my messy bed with lazy byork smiling at the camera.


lifeline to insanity. see my masterpiece on the wall!! that is 100% ME.


glorious Makati Avenue. large building on the right is Pacific Star. That is half of the walk i take to and from work.


Best Western Astor Hotel.. My neighbor. NASUNOG ang isang floor ng hotel na ito merong fire truck right below my window basang basa yung tapat and... hindi man lang ako nagising!!!


nice view of makati city hall. see the old International School and the A. Venue under construction. Maybe next year there will be no more wonderful view here at all.


the Adventure is parked on the street. See that red car behind it? Nabangga ko ata yan on the way out. Was really depressed about leaving this place. Was stuck in Makati Ave traffic in tears.
Will truly miss the Manila Skyline. That is the Harbor in the center. Storm clouds gathering.


Last photo. Goodbye condo.

what it feels like

• dragging my ass everywhere
• stuck in a rut
• hoping with all the positive energy i can muster
• cry all night
• cant move my ass
• dont know what to do
• follow my heart or follow what makes sense
• realizing that i am 10 years late for something i wanted to do 20 years ago
• realizing i should just have listened to ME
• face the havoc i left behind when i know that if i do new ones will spring out... or leave it as it is so it wont get any bigger.
• don't want to be left alone
• just want to be left alone
• just want to die the quickest painless way (like a gun shot to the head)
• dont want things fed to me
• realizing its too hard to please ME
• realizing its so damn hard to prove to myself that I. CAN. DO. IT.BY.MYSELF.
• i want to do it but dont know where to start

para sa mga taong makukulit

1. Hindi pa ako ikakasal.
2. Napaguusapan ang kasal pero hindi seryoso.
3. Wala pa kaming balak.
4. Wala akong pakialam miski matanda na ako.
5. Tsaka ko na aalalahanin ang body clock kapag 47 years old nako.
6. Kung gusto niyo ako kamustahin ganito ang pagkamusta:
YOU: "kamusta?"
hinde...
YOU: "kelan kasal?"
okidoks....???

just got evicted

goodbye to my loving condo.
i will miss you, you costly thing.
*sniff*

hope i will be able to find an abode where i will be as happy as i was with you.
i will surely miss Rufu's and Wendy's and 7-11.
North Park and Shakey's as well.
the lovely Kalayaan view, my neighbor on the Best Western out front
ambulance sounds, fire truck sounds, and the wind howling on my window when there is a storm.
the flush that doesn't work
the squeaky cabinet
my makeshift clothesline
the masking taped remote control
the uneven bed mattress.

Back to being a bloodsucker
a parasite!
what a life.

all this soon will change... for the better!!